HAMMERED HAMMERED HAMMERED, THIS IS THE WORD THAT BEST DESCRIBES MY WEEKEND. FRIDAY DRIVING TO TWIN TO VISIT MY SIS AND FAM, I GET ONE OF THE SADDEST CALLS EVER, A VERY DEAR FRIEND LOST HER 2 YR OLD DAUGHTER OVER THE WEEKEND, DUE TO AN AT HOME CAR ACCIDENT, SWEET LILIAN PASSED AWAY NEARLY ON THE SPOT, AND MY FRIEND IS OVERWHELMED WITH GUILT, I COULD NOT GET TO HER FOR 3 DAYS, DUE TO MY CAR DYING IN TWIN FALLS BECAUSE OF FUEL PUMP, SO I FELT HELPLESS. ALL SHE WANTED WAS NICOLE AND I TO BE THERE, I GOT BACK TUESDAY, MISSING THE PRIVATE VIEWING, BUT MADE IT TO HELP W/ FUNERAL. IT WAS DEVASTATING, AS IS EVERY DEATH OF A CHILD, BUT WHEN U SPEND TIME W/ THIS CHILD AND SEE HER REGULARLY, AND SEE HER MOM AND HER OVERWHELMING GRIEF, IT TARES YOUR GUTS OUT!!! AND OTHER THEN MY GIVING MY LOVE AND CHECKING ON HER DAILY, I FEEL HELPLESS. THANK HEAVEN WE KNOW THAT SHE WILL GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO RAISE LILY & SEE HER AGAIN. I REALIZE THIS IS NOT A CHIPPER FEEL GOOD POST BUT I NEEDED TO VENT SO I AM!!! I HAVE TO LET EVERYONE OF MY FRIENDS WHO READS THIS(Y'ALL KNOW WHO U R) KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. THANK HEAVEN I HAVE MY DAUGHTER & FAMILY & YOU. XOXO AND THE KNOWLEDGE THERE IS MORE OUT THERE.
